About Me

Hey there! I'm a twenty-three year old Jesus follower, and this blog is to record all of the goings-on in my life within the next months. I recently broke both of my legs, and feel God leading me to tell my story - a story of redemption and grace, of hope and pain, of excitment and fear. May you be deeply blessed as you read. Shalom!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Stand.

Today was such a sunny day.  Snow covered all of the trees, and the view was marvelous on my way up to Wisconsin this morning.  I was so thankful to be able to look out the window and see everything passing by me.  It felt good to see all of the Milwaukee bungalows lined up in neat rows as I drove up to the hospital.  And away from it.  To go to The Golden Gyro.  This sight was also quite exciting. As was the golden gyro and baklava I inhaled.  In moderation, of course, because now I can't run it off.  : )  It was a quick stop, and then we were back on the road.  The amazing part?  The entire trip still took seven hours.  My parents are amazing.  Sacrificial love displayed through sacrificed time, money, and energy (we all fell asleep when we got home.  I fell asleep in the car.)

So!  The second cast has officially been removed.  AHHH!!  My legs are SO hairy, it's ridiculous.  My favorite thing today was when my castlady said, "You know, most people freak out about how hairy their legs look, and you're freaking out about how gangly it is."  I was laughing. A lot.  I told you it would look like a baseball bat, and it totally DOES!

My doctor said that I still won't be able to put any weight on my left leg because I have a condition (the name of which I can't remember), where I have lost blood circulation to my Talus Bone.  My doctor had also predicted that this would happen, so I had mentally prepared myself for knowing this, but I was surprised to see it on the x-ray.  You could see where the bone was a lighter color because the blood supply had diminished.  In the next few weeks I'll be starting a bone stimulator, where they attach electrodes to your foot, and send electrical impulses to your bone to, apparently, stimulate bone growth.  Isn't that crazy?!

Know what I say?  Next leg of the journey, baby!

Know what the x-ray technician said?  To stand up on special x-ray stairs so they could take an x-ray.  I thought that part was funny too.  I haven't stood up for two and half months, and I was trying to figure out how to stand on a piece of glass embedded in the top of the stairs so they could x-ray my foot.  And I'm not supposed to be standing on a leg.  I didn't know I wasn't supposed to until after my escapade.  I gave it a shot, with some assistance from my padre, and ended up having to simulate standing while sitting in a chair.  It was also funny.

My right leg is another story!  I can put all of my weight on it which means that I will be standing up soon!  Whoo hoooo!  I can't stop singing "The Stand" by Hillsong.  I put the verses in before the chorus, in case you've never heard it.

You stood before creation.
Eternity in your hand.
You spoke the earth into motion,
My soul now to stand.

You stood before my failure,
Carried the cross for my shame.
My sin weighed upon your shoulders,
My soul now to stand.

So what can I say?
What can I do?
But offer this heart, oh God,
Completely to you.

So I'll walk upon salvation,
Your Spirit alive in me.
This life to declare your promise,
My soul now to stand.

I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned,
In awe of the one who made it all.
I'll stand my soul Lord to you surrendered,
All I am is yours.


The "I'll stand" part really means so much when you really can stand up, and this is the first thing I'm going to do when I can stand up: sing this song.  Seriously.  I am.  I'm so thankful that in my mind I can stand before my Father, with my arms high & my heart abandoned to him.  I truly am in awe of all that he has done, and I look forward to all he is going to continue to do.