That is your daily dose of sunshine.
For those of you in the midwest, you are probably missing the sun as much as I am tonight. I haven't seen it in so long, and the Chicago news has started this "Countdown to Spring". I just want to be like, "Stop. Please just stop. 51 days away is ridiculously far, and you're just making me more depressed." Spring is 51 days away. I guess that's not too long. I'm trying so hard to live in the moment - winter is wonderful, and I love the snow. I'm just missing the sun right now. (I found out tonight from a Nurse Practitioner babe that you can use a blue garden light to simulate sunlight, and that it produces seratonin! Home Depot, here I come!)
Just in case you don't have a blue light in your house, I'm sending a few rays your way.
Last night I fell asleep prematurely: didn't brush my teef, didn't pee, didn't take my glasses off, didn't get my pillows right (I sleep with two fluffy ones - I only had one flat one under me), and I didn't take my meds/vitamins. Let me tell you. I woke up like a grumpy bear. I felt like I had gotten hit by a truck. Or a hunter? And...I'm not sure how exactly that would feel (thankfully), but I'm sure you would feel really sore the next day. I couldn't get my internet to work, and I couldn't find my cell phone...Then, I thought I was going to be walking on crutches at my PT appointment, but I think I must have heard my PT helper wrong - not until next week.
All that to say that my day was off to a weird start. Isn't it amazing? How so many little things can distract you from what your day could be like? I mean, really. Who cares how many pillows I like to sleep on? Do I need my cell phone and internet to survive? No. Why do I let those little things make or break my day? I am so easily distracted by those things. I'm working on focus.
You know who has focus? Angels. Seriously. Tonight during my small group time, we were talking about angels, and how people in our culture today have an easier time believing in angels than they do Jesus. Some people revere angels a little too much, but I acquired an appreciation for them this evening.
They do the bidding of God with no questions asked.
I mean, the respect is not really mine to gain, but I did gain it for angels tonight. I think I am just way to pessimistic about spiritual things. I'm learning that more and more about myself. Angels are not something that I typically think a lot about, but they are a good example for me to follow. They are humble, but they know their place. They are strong, yet they are willing to serve humanity (in all their stupidity). They are focused, and yet so many different things go on in their lives all the time. It's so bizarre for me to think about!
Angels are something that God created before he created humans, and because God cares about said humans, angels do too.
“He will command his angels concerning you to guard you carefully;
they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot
against a stone."
Psalm 91: 11 & 12 (also quoted in Luke 4:10 & 11)
This may sound a little ironic coming from the chick that broke both legs, but it's SO true!! I can't tell you how many times I have seen God's careful protection in my life. I can't tell you how many times I have seen his provision and his grace. How many times I have been able to count on him when I could count on no other. God is so attentive. To every little detail. To details smaller than humans will ever see, or be able to even conceive. I just think that is so amazing.
I think that the greatest way that the angels are an example to humans is that they are in awe of God. This is why they are obedient & faithful to him, and to him alone. They see his wonder, and they see how good he is.
In both Isaiah 6:3 & Revelation 4:8 (Revelation is quoting Isaiah) it says,
"Day and night they never stop saying:
‘Holy, holy, holy
is the Lord God Almighty,’
who was, and is, and is to come."
That. Is all I need to focus on. Can you imagine the sound? Of millions of wonderful voices gathered around the throne. Holy, holy, holy are you, Lord God. I stand in awe of your wondrous love, and I thank you that I can bask in the warmth of your presence. I can't wait to stand before your throne; help me to focus on you alone.
